12 weeks 5 days

Not feeling nauseous quite as often now which is good ... but still feeling pretty tired and am starting to get headaches.   I'm now pessary free :). After the first week at half the dose my progesterone came in at 95 and after the second week with no pessaries at all it was 107 so I was pretty happy with that.  For the most part things seem to be going really well and while I'm feeling pretty positive, I have to say I'm starting to get alittle nervous in the lead up to my scan in a couple of days.  I caught up with a friend the other day to tell her I was pregnant and she then told me she had just had a miscarriage.   I felt terrible.  I didn't know she was pregnant or even trying, so talk about bad timing for me to be rocking up to tell her our news after what she's just been through.  She was happy for me but I felt pretty bad.  And she found out about the miscarriage at her 12 week scan so now I'm feeling a bit uneasy knowing my own scan is coming up.  I just need to try and stay positive and wait and see.  I told my dad our news last weekend and his response was a bit flat.  I think he was in a bit of shock since he didn't know we'd been trying  ... who knows what he was thinking.  I also told a few of the other girls I work with and fortunately they gave me a much better reception :). If all goes well with the scan then I'll be telling my supervisor and pretty much everyone will know after that.  

Our girls have been away visiting their dad for the holidays so Scout and I have been enjoying having some time to ourselves.  We took them away to Phillip Island for a weekend before they left and this past weekend we went away with Scout's parents to Acheron - they have a caravan and we took our camper.  We just hung out and did a bit of fishing which was nice.  Wasn't so great having to get up in the freezing cold and stumble through the caravan park to go to the toilet all the time at night but the rest of it was good lol.  Not sure what we will do next weekend, but it will be our last one before the girls come home so we'll be making the most of it ;). Anyway ... will post again after our scan. 

Bloated

Over the past two weeks my belly has blown up like a balloon!  I'm blaming the progesterone, but it doesn't seem to be making any difference that I'm now no longer on the stuff.  I'm not ready to tell people at work I'm pregnant ... but I'm sure people must be wondering given all this bloating is making me look alot further down the track than I really am.  My pants are uncomfortable and my shirts are riding up, even though all I'm housing at is a little Brazil nut!  Crazy.  

The morning, noon and night sickness continues.  Mornings are the worst ... It starts around 6am and doesn't ease up until about 10.  Apples help ... but not always.  Some days I find myself gripping my desk at work just trying to hang in there, wondering how the heck I'm going to get through the rest of the day.  Thankfully it usually subsides and is only off and on the rest of the day but I've had the odd occasion where it's hung around all day.  Anyway ... I'm taking it all as a good sign.  I'll be 10 weeks tomorrow!  Can't believe it :)

This past week we told Scout's mums side of the family and over the next few days we'll be telling her dad's side as well.  It's a bit difficult with the girls around because we don't plan on telling them till after the first trimester.  As nice as it would be to tell them right now ... they've been disappointed before so I'd rather wait till I feel alittle bit safer than I do right now.  The less time they have to wait between finding out a baby is coming and having that baby arrive, the better.  9 months is a looooong time to wait when you're 6 ;).  Jazzy's behaviour has also been pretty bad lately so we need to keep the focus on dealing with that right now anyway.  I'll post about this later ... but let's just say her teacher has had to have words with us on two occassions over the past 3 days of school.  Joy.  Anyway ... apart from that, things are good :)